learning to be like cool...

it might sound like such a passe thing. but learning to be cool is certainly one of the toughest things that i have ever done/am trying to do/am aiming to do...especially from Cool himself!!

...life at the MSU Boys hostel is certainly a handful and it brings with it a lot of very interesting moments that are a result of the multitude of insane characters that abound about. take for instance my residence hall and its inhabitants. MM (Manubhai Mehta) Hall is definitely up there when it comes to having the cream de la cream of mad people...a ghetto of three distinct communities, it is the early 1900's LA/Chigao of the MSU campus...and admist all of us, the two most stand out characters are definitely 'Kutta' and 'Cool'...

lately Cool has being setting the standards for the kind of attitude that i so sorely need to somehow cultivate. it's interesting how he has taken the beatings and abuses of D i such a sporting spirit. almost as if it were a part of life and something that he simply has to deal with and get over with as soon as possible. but i'm damn sure that it musn't have been an easy thing to do. when the person you 'so completely' trust turns around and kicks you in the balls, one certainly feels very much let down. what had he/she done to deserve it? hadn't that person unconditionally given everything to the other person? almost to the point that one could say that he/she was like a puppy following around it's loving master...and when that person does something so irrevocably vile it is indeed an unpardonable sin...

...it makes you feel like a pathetic insect. your entire attitude towards life changes. you may seem to be doing just fine on the outside, but in reality you are a shattered wreak. everyday becomes an ordeal knowing that you need to lick your wounds in private and put on a brave face while they heal. and they take a long time to heal. and when you see/hear about that person everyday or come face to face with memories of better times, you simply don't know how to go about with it. you smile and walk on. but it hurts...

...trusting that person again becomes a hard, almost impossible thing to do. there is so much of emotions running around between Cool and D, that it seems almost ridiculous. after all, isn't Cool just the adolescent dog that lives in the MM dorm and D one of the senior students!! but still, Cool has taken his share of life's harsher moments in good stride. he simply steers clear of D nowdays. he hasn't forgotten, but it reamins to be seen if he shall forgive. and more importantly, will i ever be able to forgive and forget??

i do not know. but it's definitely interesting as to how much one can actually learn from a dog!!

:)