psychiatric diagnosis...

it's the classic five.

Denial...Anger...Bargaining...Depression...Acceptance

sometimes people tend to skip or overlap some symptoms. there are many factors that control the velocity and direction of transition and manifestation between the 5.

first symptom - 2 days
second symptom - over 3 weeks
third symptom - 3 to 4 days
fourth symptom - 1 month (and maybe still persisting)
fifth symptom - just manifested a week ago

anyways, make me a bad cup of coffee and i can do all five in one minute flat!!

but the point that concerns me the most is of this one symptom that has been consistent through out and still managed to elude being included in the diagnosis. all i can do is sit back and ask

Am I Self Destructing??

(the current track playing on the playlist goes something like this)

...don't tell me to not to get high. cause i'm as low as i can get without kissing your ass!! i'm an addict and i just can't let it go...and anyways, whatever happened to sex, drugs and rock n roll??

~Gun's and Roses

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ah well, people might sing Happy Birthday and wish me well, but i know that its going to be tough going. it has been hard so far and its only going to get worse. and i am scared.