why the ego? Do you think that it is necessary in a relationship or in life in general? and why can't you just let go of those silly notions that you term as romantic ideals and principles?
the EGO is me. it is the culmination of my entire life's efforts. whatever i have achieved till date is reflected in my ego. it is also the pride and emotion that i feel as a part of my family and it's heritage and of my culture and of my nation. in short everything around me that i cherish becomes my ego.
who would i be if i had no ego? if i couldn't stand up and say with pride "my name is Nachiketa Das", what would be my identity? i am not just another person. i don't want to be just another person. we are all constructs of identities and to compromise on one's identity is in my eyes an unpardonable crime. even my conscience is my ego. i am an irreproachable egoist.
...i realized this fact very early on in life and have continuously built upon it. the methods of building have changed over time, as have the preferences of the building tools, but i have never looked back. earlier on i used to rush into things with a zeal that was aimed at overwhelming my undertaking. almost like a Blitz Kreig. but now i take smaller strides. they may be smaller, but they are also surer.
i have always been provided with a healthy meal of books to satiate my incessant hunger for reading and learning in general. from my first real comic (Flash Gordon folks, and i still have it) at the age of 3 to the current book on my table (Strangers of the Mist) and to the healthy collection that i so fondly call my library, it is these books that have filled my head with this so called 'romantic ideal'. they have given me the panache for dramatization and also made me contemplative by nature. they have filled my dreams with a sense of adventure and they have drawn up a map of the world that i want to travel. and so if you want to blame anything or anyone then blame them books.
but i most certainly would not. yes, i am a silly person who has faith in the inherent goodness of man and who dreams of great adventures into the unknown.
i just believe. why? i do not know. i just believe.
in other things, being a part of the current growing Indian economy, i am supposed to be a proud consumer. a consumer i am, but pride in the Indian economy is certainly something that i find to be becoming increasingly unpalatable. the growing disparity between the burgeoning upper middle class and the stagnant lower classes is something that is an ever increasing concern. there are signs of fractures emerging in the nation. the problem with militancy in the North Eastern states and the civil disorder in Nandigram and Singur to the rise of fundamental Hindutva in Gujarat and the growing apathy in the Delhi. they are all cause for concern. globalization has claimed it's latest victim. the CPI (M) in Bengal. the so called Marxists have also fallen to the charms of a capitalistic ideal. not that i am an anti-capitalistic or anti-globalization, but somewhere we must draw a line.
when the government itself under the guise of national interest and with the help of a draconian law that predates our independence lays claim to the lands of a community that has been for centuries living a contented existence, enough is enough.
the situation is Naidigram and Singur is a result of the terrible miscalculations of the government. they thought that by building SEZs they would feed to the growing capitalistic bubble in India and in return generate employment and growth. but employment and growth at what cost? at the cost of uprooting the existing agarian society. by turning farmers into factory workers. we are simply asking for trouble. we are asking for a Malthusian nightmare.
when the sons-of-the-soil are removed from their soil, trouble brews. the entire North Eastern region is already reeling from an assault of demographic movements within the states and even across borders. an unprecedented and unaccounted number of people are already walking across the border into India in search of a better life charmed by the new consumerism that has engulfed most of India. what we need is a solution to this mass influx and not adding to it by displacing out own. we are fueling dissent amongst the people and forcing them to take up arms to save their unique lifestyle against the encroaching consumerism. we believe that we are a growing economy that is on its way to becoming the next super power due to its astounding consumerism driven growth. but growth at the cost of our own people . i guess i do not believe in that.