Friday, June 16, 2006

i hate this...

it's happening all over again...once again i feel like i've been run over by a bus and then re-run over by a freight train. the mild numbness of missing someone very dear has suddenly escalated into excruciating pain & all i can do is pray to God begging for it to stop.
i always knew that this moment was only a step away. it's happened before and it's happening again. after all, nostalgia does have a nasty habit of giving way to sadness & i hate it.
i don't want to run from it. i just don't want to feel like this anymore. maybe i need to keep myself busy & not let my thoughts wander off again. maybe i need to do a lot of other things. but right now i just can't do anything.

so i'm gonna go turn off the lights and sleep. sleep is definitely a good medication to most problems & anyways, that's all that i can do at the moment.