life is all about perspectives. we see things the way we want to see them. and we do the same with people as well. no, i am not always positive and cheery. i am at times brooding and deary. and when i get up on the 'wrong side of the bed' i am not white, nor gray, no shades in between or any color whatsoever... ...and i am not ashamed of it. but like anything human, i wish to go against what is but nature, my nature, the way that i am. i wish to change.
my 'black' nature was the matter of discussion last night. i was told i am unpredictable. i was told i put the opposite person in a dilemma with my silence. i was told i can be cold and inconsiderate, almost heartless. and i replied, "all that i am. and maybe more so with the ones i care about and love the most. but i do not enjoy being so."
i miss my sister. it's been far too long since i've seen her. she is still a kid and she needs her elder brother. 'she says so'. i have always been her shield against anything that tries to hurt her. but i have been selfish. i have put miles and miles of distance between us in my pursuit of 'my academics, a career, happiness and life'. but the truth is, maybe i need her more than she needs me. she is the unrealized and unappreciated silent strength behind my overtly vocal being. she is my opposite. she is white.
i am pure and simple black.
my 'black' nature was the matter of discussion last night. i was told i am unpredictable. i was told i put the opposite person in a dilemma with my silence. i was told i can be cold and inconsiderate, almost heartless. and i replied, "all that i am. and maybe more so with the ones i care about and love the most. but i do not enjoy being so."
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i miss my sister. it's been far too long since i've seen her. she is still a kid and she needs her elder brother. 'she says so'. i have always been her shield against anything that tries to hurt her. but i have been selfish. i have put miles and miles of distance between us in my pursuit of 'my academics, a career, happiness and life'. but the truth is, maybe i need her more than she needs me. she is the unrealized and unappreciated silent strength behind my overtly vocal being. she is my opposite. she is white.
"only that i never say so."
1 comment:
aww..
**i was told i put the opposite person in a dilemma with my silence.
so wut..it's their problem to feel that way, not ur's.
Keshi.
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